today i learned how to make a gif..

Everyday, as I open my tumblr account I always see this beautiful gifs coming from movies or tv series made by the people i follow. And yeah I'd be honest I really envy them for that. I really wanted to learn how to make one even those photoshopped pictures,as far as I can remember editing was a major part of what I studied when I was in college..


Anyways.. So yeah I started searching for a software which I can use for editing aside from photoshop, then I came to me Photoscape. It's really fun using it though I'm still learning everything about it. So early this afternoon since I was so bored at home, I finally decided to make a couple of gifs. I experimented the with the photos I have on my files and well yeah its easy to make one.


I can't say that my gifs were quality but it was really an achievement for me to learn how to make one and I was like a 7 year-old kid who was so happy seeing the outcome of the gifs I made.


My next step is to download toycamera software for photo-editing.


I think I can't download Adobe Photoshop since I'm only using a notebook and its memory's a bit low but never mind I'll just enjoy the software that I can use for now.

1st Month

Relax everyone, i'm not talking about relationship here, I'm talking about my 1`st month on my new job. It marks today. So yeah, my 2months of unemployment was over and now I'm working again. I must say that until now, I'm on my adjusting period. I still don't have close friends here, often times I feel like I'm a stranger in this company but its okay.


By the way I work as an SEO( search engine optimization) Specialist and I spend most of my time  online, so I always have fun working though it's kinda stressful coz there are time that we work 10 hours on weekdays and works on Saturday-Sunday: TOXICATED MUCH=STRESSED ZOMBIE.


Oh well I'm getting used to it. :D

the dark side

They say that everything has two sides. It’s either positive or negative. The moon, for instance has another side-the dark side, we say-that we cannot see from here. The only way to be able to see it is to go and explore the depths of space.

I, myself has two sides. Just like the moon, I have the side which shows what people like to see-happiness. And once in a while, I would like to hide and be alone when I can’t take it anymore. Just like the new moon. And just like the moon, I have my darker side. The side wheremisery prevails. The side where fear and anger rises up. But beneath this other façade, I try to hide myself in a mask of smiles and laughter.

But there are people who misunderstand the reason I hide. It’s because I’m weak. Weaker than anyone can think of. I’m afraid. I’minsecure. Not from anyone but myself. I’m afraid that I will not be accepted. I don’t have the confidence that would help me struggle with life. And lastly, I’m afraid to get hurt. I try to be strong though I’m not. I know I’ve got a lot to learn and I’m not even perfect.

PERFECTION. Arrrgh. I detest this word. I mean, NO ONE is perfect. So why in the world are people struggling to be one? I’mimperfect and I’m proud of it. I have flaws that make me who I am. Imagine a world where everybody is the same and with just one tiny flaw, you would recognize who I am. I mean, with a world wherein everyone is perfect, no one would actually be.

I have flaws. And with these, I make my own mistake. I know that I am not all-that. I make mistakes and I struggle to correct them. So to those people who do not understand me and give me your so-called compliments, try to look at your own selves. You say you hate me ‘coz you don’t like my attitude and I should change. In telling me these things, aren’t you making your own mistakes like talking behind my back? And why the hell will I change for you? I don’t even like you guys. There.Ha-ha. I would change for myself. It would be my choice. Mine. Not yours.

I have life, well, minus the love. I get them as little as possible. Every one has a prince charming. Well, boo-hoo. He’s so stupid he got lost. Or maybe I’m in a very secluded part of the world that he can’t find it. Or maybe he doesn’t know where it is. [I’m here!]

But still, when everything seems to stop at a dead end, everything goes to the wrong way and I feel as if I’m being swallowed by darkness, I see a patch of light in front of me. I try to follow it and I see hands. Lots of them. The people who owned these hands and brought me out of the darkness were the ones who really cared. And as tears fall down my face, I remember the memories that I tried to lock up inside a box and stuff it somewhere inside my brain. And as I tried to pry it open, it came to my surprise that there wasn’t any lock. I then saw the times when we were laughing about the simple things in life like Paumispronouncing fortune cookie and said cortune fookie instead, Jean saying erasement. I realize, deep inside me, that there are still little pleasures in life that I overlooked in my greedy quest for happiness.

Because even though boys cheat, friends stab, people hate, die, others even lie, and memories fade, life goes on in every little way possible.

Though occasionally, I get sad and be depressed, I also get the real happiness I want, the real smiles that suddenly illuminate my face-just like the full moon.

stolen glances.

stolen glances.

i bet you never even noticed.

or at least you PRETENDED not to.

kept walking past you.

i bet you NEVER even saw me.

or that's just because you never even looked my way.

kept following you.

i bet you NEVER even knew.

or that's just because you NEVER even turned around.

all i need is a hint of RECOGNITION.

to know that I EXIST.

well, at least in YOUR WORLD.

I GUESS NOT.

what's next for therese and marcus'story?

I'm such a DORK mangarap ba naman akong maging isang manunulat at magsulat nang sarili kong libro hehehe..If I could remember I started to write myUNFINISHED.UNTITLED book when I was in??3rd year college haha..Nung petsa na ba ngaun?Am working n di ko parin tapos..Anywho the synopsis of the book that Im writing ay tungkol sa dalawang taong may magkaibang mundo..Oo na normal ang ganitong story eh bakit ba!?Ako ang AUTHOR ay mamali NANGANGARAP maging AUTHOR..By the way the characters name are Marcus Penn a teenage-cager-heartrob-jaw-dropping guy in fact his everything a girl wants to have..(blah!)Yun nga lang as the saying goes nobody's perfect ang problem with Marcus is his attitude mayabang headache sa mga teacher bagsak madalas sa history class nya..Kaya aun he needs to be tutored.
Geek.Bookworm.Thick eyeglasses.Tutor. thats how Therese Stevens being described.Dahil sa isang tutor si Therese sya yung naassign to tutor Marcus and its how they met.Syempre its natural for them to clash haha..
Pero as the story goes..By the way Im writing the 5th chapter na..Hindi pa tapos yung 5th chapter cguro 3pages palang yung chapter 5 hahaha..Marcus fell in love with Therese kaya his question with  Therese "IF I EVER TELL YOU THAT I LOVE YOU WILL YOU LOVE ME BACK?"
Anyways what would happen next to their story?Well di ko rin alam hahaha wala pa akong powers havent even set my mind to the next scenes..In short medyo wala pa ako sa mood magsulat hahaha..
Malamang sa pagtanda ko pa matapos yung BOOK..
Abangan nyo nalang kung gusto nyo..Who knows it'll get published...HOPEFULLY..hahahaha..

i WANT a GUY

I WANT A GUY  who would move the hair away from my eyes and then kiss me..hold my hand in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous..I WANT A GUY who would sing to me at random moments ..I WANT A GUY who would let me sleep on his chest..I WANT A GUY who would get mad when someone would call me ugly or if someone was mean to me..I WANT A GUY who would call me 3 times a day if he went away..someone who would make fun of me just to make me laugh..he would take me to the park put his arms around my waist and give me a big bear hug all the time..he would be proud of me whenever he talks bout me round his friends..I WANT A GUY who never be afraid to say "i love you" in front of his friends..I WANT A GUY who would give me a lifesized teddy bear and a boquet of roses and wrote me a love letter..I WANT A GUY who would help me make the dinner and watch movies together under the same blanket...i want a guy who would make me laugh when no one else could make me laugh..mostly I WANT A GUY who would be my bestfriend and WONT BREAK MY HEART...

I FIND IT CUTE WHEN BOYS.

Make weird faces.

Say “Aww”.

Ask how your day was.

Don’t care about their appearance.

Play with their younger siblings

Dance ridiculously.

Lick their lips.

Get frustrated.

Laugh.

Sings to you, even if they're out of tune.

Bite their lower lip.

Make that sexy half smirk.

Have proper grammar.

Are funny.

Teases me a little.

Hug me from behind.

Kiss me on the forehead.

Watch cute movies with me.

Tell me they love me in front of their friends. 

Says i love you in the middle of fights.

face the truth

why do we love ba? 

so we can have somebody to talk to? 

someone who can be there pag gusto natin gumala? 

a person na pwedeng manlibre satin? 

taong magbibitbit ng gamit mo? ALALAY for short! 

eh pano kung di ka nya mahal? would you still love him/her? 
would you still continue to care for that person? 

bakit naman hinde? you didnt love that person para magkaroon ka ng alalay, magkaroon ka ng instant meal dahil libre, taong gagawa ng assignments mo or projects, or taong mahihila mo if you want to go out... if thats what you think about love well sorry ang BABAW mo! 

loving a person doesn't need to have a criteria na dapat maganda o guwapo, dapat mabait or understanding, kasi once you fall inlove you take the risk of accepting dat person kahit maingay sya matulog, yung hilik ng hilik .. kahit matakaw sya o sobrang fat na hindi kayo kasya pag puno ang jeep! kahit sobrang moody nya na kulang na lang ay sapakin mo sa inis! yung sobrang selosa/seloso na pati barkada pinagseselosan.. 

badtrip diba? and yung napaka-arte OA kung baga! o kahit ano pang things that would turn you off... 
hirap tlaga magmahal trying to be PERFECT kase ...gusto mong magtagal pero hindi yun ang sagot sa lahat... ACCEPTING the real person fully .. kase if you said na mahal mo sya you dont need to find answers kung bakit mo sya mahal... 

kase lahat ng tao nagbabago but if you accept 
that person magbago man sya in the middle of your relationship hindi ka masasaktan kase you know that darating 
din yun.. tsaka tanggap mo sya ng buo... mahirap gawin pero masarap subukan dahil wala ng sasaya pa if you let one person feel na MAHAL NA MAHAL mo sya without asking 4 anything in return... then you can say wow un pla ang LOVE! 


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Nakakatawa talaga ang love. Isa siyang napakalaking oxymoron. Lahat ng pwede mong masabi sa kanya, baliktarin mo at totoo pa rin. Ang labo diba? Pero ang linaw. Masaya magmahal. Malungkot magmahal. Di mo 
naiintindihan pero naiintindihan mo. Walang rason. Maraming rason. Di mo na kaya, pero kaya mo pa rin. Masakit magmahal. Pero okey lang. Sus, ano ba talaga?! Damn Damn May kaibigan ako, sabi niya dati "Love is only for stupid people." Nakakatawa kasi laude ang standing niya, pero dumating ang panahon, na-in-love din ang hunghang. At ayun, tanga na siya ngayon. Lahat kasi ng nahahawakan ng love nagiging oxymoron din. O kaya paminsan, nagiging moron lang. Hindi lang kasi basta baliktaran ang pag-ibig. Lahat ng bagay nababaligtad din niya. Lahat ng malalakas na tao, 
humihina. Ang mayayabang, nagpapakumbaba. Ang mga walang pakialam, nagiging Mother Teresa. Ang mga henyo, nauubusan ng sagot. Ang malulungkot, sumasaya. Nakakatawa talaga. Lalo na kapag dumadating siya sa mga taong ayaw na talaga magmahal. Napansin ko nga eh. Parang kung gusto mo lang ma-in-love ulit, sabihin mo lang ang magic words na "Ayoko na ma-inlove!" biglang WACHA! Ayan na siya.Nang-aasar. Magpapaasar ka naman. 

Di ba nakakatawa rin na pagdating sa problema ng ibang tao, ang galing galing mo? Pero 'pag problema mo na yung pinag-uusapan parang nawawalan ng saysay lahat ng ipinayo mo dun sa namomroblemang tao? Naiisip mong wala namang mali dun sa mga sinabi mo. Pero bakit parang wala ring tama? Bali-baliktad din ang nasasabi ng mga taong tinamaan ng madugong pana ng pag-ibig. "Ngayon ko lang nalaman ganito pala. Sabi ko na eh!" "Ang sarap mabuhay. Pwede na 'ko mamatay. Now na!" At hindi lang 'yon. 

Ang sarap din pagtawanan ng mga taong alam naman nilang masasaktan lang sila eh magpapatihulog pa rin sa bangin ng pag-ibig. Tapos 'pag luray-luray na yung puso nila, siyempre hindi sila yung may kasalanan. Siya! "Bakit niya 'ko sinaktan?" May kasama pang pagsuntok sa pader yon, at pagbabagsak ng pinto. 

Hayop talaga. 
Mauubos ang buong magdamag ko kakasabi ng mga bagay na nakakatawa 'pag pag-ibig na ang pinag-usapan. Ang daming beses ko na kasi siya nakasalubong kaya masasabi ko nang eksperto na 'ko. 
Pero wala pa rin akong alam. Pero ang pinakanakakatawa sa lahat ay ang katotohanang kapag gusto magpatawa ng pag-ibig, ipusta na mo na lahat ng ari-arian mo dahil siguradong ikaw ang punchline. 

Nakakatawa no? 
Nakakaiyak.

TO EVERY GIRL...LISTEN, GUYS..

To every girl....if you almost cry while reading this, it includes you.... 


To every girl that is SCARED to put her heart 
out there again, because she has been HURT 
too many times or so badly. 


To every girl that 
dresses cute, not skanky. 


To every girl who 
wants to be called beautiful, not hot. 


To every girl that will spend her whole day 
looking for the perfect present for you. 


To every girl who gets her heart 
broken, because he chose that other girl instead 


To every girl that would die 
to have a decent boyfriend. 


To every girl who would just once like 
to be treated like a princess. 


To every girl that cries at night 
because of another heartbreak. 


To every girl that 
just wants to hold hands. 


To every girl that 
kisses him with meaning. 


To every girl who 
just wishes he cared more. 


To every girl who would just once want a guy to give 
their jacket up when they are cold. 


To every girl who 
just wants him to call. 


To every girl who lies 
awake at night thinking about him. 


To every girl that 
just wants to cuddle. 


To every girl that 
just wants to sleep with him without having sex. 


To every girl who shows how much 
she cares and gets nothing back. 


To every girl that thought 
'maybe this one could be the one'. 


To every girl that laughs at stupid stuff 
when she actually doesn't think it is funny. 


To every girl who is just looking for that one 
and only and is having a rough time along the way. 


To every girl that doesn't want a guy who 
just plays with her emotions but actually cares 
about how she feels. 

To every girl who wants 
words backed up with actions. 


To every girl that fell for all the lies 
only to find themselves alone in the end. 


To every girl that gave her heart away 
to have it shoved back in her face. 

To every girl that has faith that 'tomorrow will be a better day